Love, Dating and Relationships

I’ve never ever thought a mobile was in par with my agenda. It was utterly a sight of ennui to see the whole crowd press themselves against their phones and talking late in the night, burning the midnight oil into nothingness.

But now I feel like sneering at all those who have nobody to express their hearts out to. It’s a killer pain that I have to endure when I am not talking to him. There were days where I used to glance back into my mobile for every two minutes wondering what’s holding him back from calling me, in spite of knowing that my mobile would automatically vibrate if he were calling me.

There were days where I had feared the most, shedding continuous tears for not hearing from him. It was the day when he was supposed to fly abroad, but couldn’t contact me as the insane airports and their good-for-nothing airplanes were tardy. I had to encounter so much of pain just for one call. Why was that one call so important to me? What made that one particular voice so special? Every single message I got, every single call I received that day gave me a brief span of relief, but on realizing that it was not him, but a dumb subscription message, made me howl again in agony.

And after the extra two hours of the intended time of arrival (the intended time of his calling me), my phone buzzed with his name. With my face still stained with my pearly tears, my shivering hands quickly grabbed the phone in reflex. And only after those precious five minutes did my heart slumber in peace

This is the umpteenth time experience that makes me wish that my heart were made of something much stronger than wrought iron rather than just flesh and blood. Yesterday, I had contentment that was superfluous and today everything seems to be drying up in an unbelievable dearth? Is this what we call as love? Intense pain that makes me want to throw myself up from the 56th floor, rather than just stay as a zombie.

I consider myself as the person of utmost stupidity now for realizing all those people I had cursed and had sworn for taking the ultimate step of ending themselves. But now I am staged in the same instances of those love-loving souls who indeed fought against all odds as I did in my wonderful wife. They were not idiots as I had predicted before. They were drowning in the pool of memories left behind by the traitors of love.

But my case seemed to be different. It was true on either ways, but now, withered with a fatal accident which took him away from me. I know he’s still out there in the air that environs me. Still loving me! Still embracing me without his body! I cannot do injustice and be ignoble to my love. And that’s why I decided to come to you.

If anybody asks me what I valued the most in my life, I have just one answer to give them. And nevertheless, that is the truth of all times. The reason for this is the world in itself. The events, the dirty truths, the unimaginable betrayls, everything is beyond the tolerating capacity of mine.

Life was one complete mess with troubled childhood and sometimes I wished why I was trapped inside a body that I didn’t wish to be with. The whole world detested and threw me away like I was a dirty ragamuffin begging on the streets. Tearful were the days that I had left behind me.

After now, I believed the fact that not all get everything that they desire, but nobody goes back without getting something that they desired. Of all things that I asked for in life, I attained just one. But thats more than enough for me now, I feel. It was long back unattainabe, a destination that I would never reach. Having a perfect life partner!

I had no hopes that anybody would ever like me. But God has his own calculations, i guess. Who knows better? Who awards better? And along came my man! I don’t know if I actually deserve him. But one thing is for sure. I would never do anything that would make him regret for choosing me. All my tears were wiped, I found a strong, supporting shoulder to lean on. Now I feel like sniggering at the whole world.

Whats the best thing a girl can have than having a truthful, loving and caring partner, which is hundred percent impossible in this world? Now I feel so happy that God didn’t give me anything else but pains and tears in the past, it’s all because he has planned a beautiful, bright happy life for me to keep smiling for always in the future. Thanks for giving the real gem to me!

The dusk ended so fast and the plan what the troop had decided was really sucking. They planned to go to orchid garden, flower show and zoo. But our hero completely disagreed and quibbled with his lead to change the plan. Our hero wanted to go the famous gentling islands and batu caves. But helpless hero was taken to places which he hated the most. He could have seen the same place in brindavan garden in his local town. He grumbled so badly in his deep heart and wished if he had made this trip with his wife. The evening was spent at china bazaar where they purchased a lot of cheap items and the whole day was a mess again. The whole crowd stood against him and our hero felt so lonely and isolated. There were days when he was always been the centre of attraction and he had the ability to wind any kind of crowd towards his way. He was able to throw magical spell and had the capability to mingle and gel with any kind of crowd. But what happened now? Why did his love change him to be a love sick lunatic. Why is he not able to mingle with people? He does not like anyone else apart from his girl. Wherever he turns, he can see her eyes. God this is tortuous. He was not able to wipe her off his thoughts. She sat so dominant in his heart and stopped him from gelling and being happy with others. He loves you queen.

The first step on the foreign land was remorse. They soon switched mono rails which ran like a fiery cheetah to reach their motel. He went straight to the balcony and zoomed at the streets which had unusual Chinese face. He felt lost in that lonely land and cried thinking about his wife who cared for him so much. The plan for the evening was to wander on the nearby locality to understand the pace of the country. He rambled on the roads searching for his lost love. The evening ended after long walks which apparently made him drag himself to his hotel. His first impression on this new country was too bad and he did not like being in that place. He had deep pockets but did not have his love to enjoy with. At last he hit the sack with frozen heart and prayed for the dusk to get over soon. Because he wanted to finish off this trip soon and return back to his angel.

Malaysia was really a dream destination. Every time he saw ads saying ‘truly Asia, Malaysia’ his heart pumped up high and dreaming that he should go there too. Finally luck stepped up in his way and he was selected for an onsite project. This is what exactly happened there. He had to catch his early morning train to reach a sub urban place where he actually had to board the flight. He was half dead when he reached the airport. The flight was early in the morning and so the troop had to find accommodation for the gap they had. After managing to get a low cost hotel he started to miss his girl very badly. The excitement of going abroad started to diminish and instead he felt lonely and bored without her. This was the time which actually showed him how much he loved his wife. The check in period for luggage was so chaotic and he was so nervous since as his signature in the visa and the boarding pass did not match. Luckily he escaped the boarding point and was permitted inside the airport. For the first time in his life he saw the duty free shops which have exotic chocolates and porch wine bottles. Glenfiddich was his favorite single malt whisky which he wanted to buy for his father in law. Even at that point his only intention was to impress her family and she was the one who continuously ran in his mind. The gang got three bottles of expensive red label Scotch whisky and cigarettes for thousand rupees. But still his pocket was heavy and he had never had so much with him before. Once they got into the flight he was luckily placed near the window seat wherein he can have a clear view outside. The plane took off smoothly and tears trickled down his cheeks considering the fact that he his flying far away from her. He never wanted to fly again. Yes you are right, love hurts. The expected excitement was almost nil and he grieved that she is not with him. The foreign land did not attract him. The languishing mood killed his happiness and he regretted once he landed in Malaysia.

I am going to talk about a true love story in this below article. He always had a very big love and addiction towards the abroad life. He had spent countless days thinking about how the foreign country would look. He had times when he has cried to his friends and told them that he is dying for a life abroad. I still remember how he used to admire those huge airplanes when they had their booze party in his friend’s terrace. Going in a flight to a foreign nation was his childhood ambition. There were days where he felt so jealous looking at his updated orkut friend’s pictures. He felt that they were so incapable but still had this luck to breathe the foreign air. He wanted to be amidst tall sky scrapers and land rovers screeching the road. He wanted to wear huge black coats and pose for pictures just like how his friends did. He had his cousin’s as role models who were too successful and got settled abroad. He envied people who settled there and just came India to meet their family. What was lacking in him? What mistake did he do? Why did he have to crave for something for which he was very apt and capable? How come all his friends who never knew a word in English settled there when he was stuck in a place which he hated the most? Are ambitions wrong? Is happiness confined to only a certain group of people? Then came his lady love who changed his entire life style. His every dream got true. There were days where he was in the air port not but did not had money to pay for the entrance. I still remember when he sat down in viewing gallery in the airport and had tears looking at people boarding the flight.

But things have changed now. This lucky angel made everything possible; she went into his blood and gave him new strength and confidence. She was a goddess who made this pauper a prosperous person. He was so blessed to have her. She was so madly in love with him, very possessive and spoon-fed him every single thing and he just had to follow her blindfolded. She was sunshine of his life. She submitted her life for him and guided him and giving him a ray of hope. She sacrificed all her happiness and led a selfless life focusing only on his happiness and success. She got him a job in a very esteem organization and without her he would have been just a rogue with beer bottle in his life. This might sound so cinematic and unrealistic but this is true. There are no words to praise her for commitment towards love. This angel sprinkled the entire magical spell to brighten his future and awaken him from people who were sucking his blood.

I was a rogue, my friends called me a womanizer, teachers called me useless and even my parents thought I will never do anything great in life. This was how it went when I was doing my graduation. I had very bad past. I had big fame, name, popularity, craze, fun and everything which any normal guy would die to enjoy. Everything went well till i fell into the wrong hands. Then started the trauma, my agonizing life went on and on for a year, killing my peace.

I was very bad in studies, despite of having sound technical knowledge and sharp brain. I was still first when counted from last. My credits were all low, every exam seemed so hard and I was just a dumb assole who was encountering continous failures. Then came this lucky angel who showered me with success and luck. I was able to clear all my back logs in a single attempt. My mom nearly fainted in happiness when she heard it, my dad was overwhelmed. Then she added me with my job. I still remember my math teacher saying that am not fit apart from running a cycle shop. Everything seems green, everything seems clean, everything is fine. I was someone who always wanted to freak out with my pals and gave a shit about love. Never believed in this filmi funda. She changed my life. She has set my ambitions, gave meaning for every breath. Her love and sincerity made me go crazy for her. Her nature of being reserved made me feel so special that am the only one who is getting drenched in her affection now. She left her parents, left her career, left her entire passions, she even forgot where she was heading to and started to follow my words like a blind pup. Am happy that I saw her, am happy that I flirted to her, happy that we are sharing our life and she is the best women in this galaxy. Waiting to see what’s in store! And waiting for the future.. but I know I will be much more happier and delighted than what I am now.love you too honey.

Never did I realise what these 3 words meant. I was an idiot blinded by pride and annoying nature. The years that flew before you entered my heart were wasted and uncherised. It was clouded with fear, pain, selfishness and rejectedness by this world.

When you showed me your love, I never dared to think that you were my perfect soul-mate. It started off as an unsecure and feeble bonding. But once we entered into the real world of sorrow, pains, agony and humiliation, you stood by my side holding my hands tightly which meant, “I am there for you till the end, no matter what”. The whole world disgraced me. But your ever-blooming love made me take a steely resolve that I got to return my gratitude back for supporting me through my tough times by being your devotee.

You threw away the entire world just to live a life with me. Guess what? I’m never going to let you down, my love!

It was as if it had just been yesterday. I was all dressed up ready for my big day, wondering what was in store for me.  The previous night, he had called me up to wish at dot 12. It was one nostalgic moment as there was a beautiful promise made on our love that it is going to be a lovely day ahead.

So, the day started with my first gift, a bunch of roses. The climate added on to my happiness by being cloudy and slightly sprinking blessings in the form of minute droplets. And then, I was taken to this amazing place I had never stepped my foot on. Had no clue what it was as I was not made to enter the underground tunnel.

I was wondering why we were waiting and I got a reply soon enough. A very important bunch of relatives of his whom I valued turned up. My joy knew no bounds. And then some more guests to fill up the party. And then I was made to enter the tunnel.

It was dark with skimpy flashes of light. It was actually eerie with thundering effect. I thought it was a dance floor, initially. But it turned out to be a restaurant highlighted with the effect of a forest. There were thorny bushes and flowers hanging every where. I had never seen a place so beautiful so far.

We started by ordering our delicacies. In between, he excused himself and vanished away saying that he would be back soon. I sit there admist everyone wondering what was next, and he comes after 15 min. And along with him, guess who? Two of my closest school friends with whom I lost contact… Wow, that must’ve been a hard job tracking them and convincing them up to give me a surprise visit. I had a lovely time chatting with those girls after nearly 3 years.

And then once again, he vanished. What next? And to my surprise, it was my mom who was standing there with a smiling face. How did he do that? I was amazed by his passion and commitment towards making me happy.

 Finally,  the most awaited part… cutting the cake! The cake was my favourite pineapple flavoured with chocolate coating. The whole crowd stood in front of me as the lime-lights were thrown upon me. And they sang, “Happy Bday to yo….”.  I was showered with gifts and prsents and wishes. The cake was distributed and relished.

I thought that was the end of it. But not so soon, he said. As most guests start to leave, he goes off once again and makes a re-entry again wearing a shirt. A shirt with my portrait on it! That was the most wonderful thing that I had ever seen.

We started to click snaps after snaps and decided to go take refuge in a mall. And there, I was given a royal treatment by him and was asked to select anything that I like there. Shopping was not my thing. But that day I was half-crazy, that I almost forgot my principles. And so I go about picking up my favourite pair of goggles and the most exquisite bracelet ever on the rack.

That night, just like as in post, I recollected every single memorable event that had occured earlier that day. But as one’s birthday ends, they get overwhelmed by this unexpressable sadness that it’s all over. The same thing happened to me. I get a message on my mobile, the same minute sayin, “The surprises and the happiness that you had are not just for this one day, but for the rest of your life. I love you!”.

I can’t believe thats it has been almost a year. And now again, I am all jittery about what’s in store for me now!